Want to know about me?

Well I saw the 50 things about me going around on YouTube and since I stopped making videos because it was just stressful with college and the only thing I could film on was my iPad so I gave up on it and decided to concentrate on my blog which I’m getting around to slowly believe me I’ve never been this proud of anything before and it’s the only blog that has grown with views and followers which is strange to see people are interested in my posts but it makes me happy.

So I thought since I haven’t shared much about myself on here I will do it now with just a few random facts nothing in particular order or subject.

1. I love the sound of rain – it’s the best ever just to be inside the house to hear it patter on the roof of the conservatory it’s very calming and peaceful

2. My 19th birthday is on the 7th April – this year I know I’m getting old but I’m glad to still be young I may not like being in education but it saves the stress of growing up and becoming involved with jobs.

3. The Vampire Diaries is my favourite show – I love Tuesdays when it’s on because it’s just a show that really has messed with my emotions and I’ve become a little obsessed not like the people you see on Tumblr but it’s just exciting and awesome.

4. I’ve had an eye operation – it’s been a few years now and still the best choice I made.

5. I like a lot of different music genres – I don’t have a favourite I just go with what catches my attention most.

6. Favourite colour is Purple you wouldn’t ever be able to tell with my Purple hoodie, Purple room, Purple nail polish, and just general Purple things haha.

7. I am a very accident prone person especially when I was much younger I used to always fall over, fell through a window; down the stairs, swallowed money, burnt myself twice on my face and arm with coffee and an iron. I don’t know how I still don’t have any scars to prove it.

8. I absolutely love reading books – It’s my favourite thing to spend my time doing especially in the holidays when there is nothing to do and I just read a book for hours.

9. I never go on holiday – I haven’t been for many years just because we don’t have the money to and usually I get ill all the time on holiday.

10. I don’t have many friends –  because I just don’t I never have and It’s always difficult to make friends when people are already in friendship groups.

11. I dislike romance films – they just make me cringe a lot.

12. I love the James Bond films.

13. I like cars.

14. I once had a rabbit called Harry.

15. I love being active a lot of the time and definitely swimming is my favourite thing to do in my spare time.

16. I like writing – it keeps me thinking positive thoughts and distracts me from stress.

17. I would like to study journalism eventually.

18. Hayley Williams is my idol.

19. My favourite animal is a tiger.

20. My best friend is Frank.

21. I laugh constantly at anything.

22. I am very talkative – most the time I can be shy but I do talk a lot.

23. I am always tired.

24. I draw although I’m no good at it.

25.  I love to be creative.

26. I’m good at baking many things with my mum it’s a sunday tradition.

27. Scared of heights even the smallest of them and I will literally cling on to the bar at the side going as slow as possible.

28. I have only one tattoo but soon to have more.

29. When showering I like the water to be really hot.

30. I love a cup of tea especially before bed.

31. I want a husky they are cute.

32. I want to go to New York one day – going to all the different fabulous shops and to go around the city taking great photographs.

33. I’m really shy and whenever in public I tend to look away from people.

34. When I get a bit too excited and happy I tend to talk loudly.

35. My favourite Disney princess is Ariel.

36. I want to write a novel one day that isn’t based on stories already made.

37. I am left handed which means I’m no good at writing neatly at all.

38. I have two middle names which are Helena and Louise I got the name Helena after I made my confirmation.

39. I’m awful at concentrating when doing my work and in college I just tend to stare out the window too much.

40. I daydream way too much which is bad for me when I need to do my coursework.

41. I am awful at being a student because I hand my work in too late and I’m slow at working.

42. I’m too nice for my own good because even treating people nice leads me to being treated wrong.

43. I don’t ever really go to the cinema anymore because I don’t have the money or it’s just too far to go when I have things to do on the weekend.

44. I used to act like a mother to my cousin when we were both little.

45. Batman is my favourite hero ever.

46. I prefer males with blonde hair.

47. I’m always too impatient and I suppose that’s why people get fed up with me.

48. I hate being in places with other people and I always feel like they will judge me.

49. I’m pretty much a loner because I spend my time in the house on Tumblr.

50. and last of all I hate people that will lie to me.

What YouTube means to me

I can’t remember when I first noticed YouTube but the person I watched most with Shane Dawson because he was funny and great, I love videos that make you laugh until your stomach hurts. He provided the kind of distraction we all need from reality sometimes it’s no fun to feel stressed and sad so Shane’s videos were the go to solution. Ever since then I have found lots of other amazing YouTubers whether it’s beauty guru’s, Vloggers, and the ASMR because those videos are relaxing believe me it makes me super tired I often find myself watching those videos a lot.  But you may think why would you watch people who vlog every single day of their life well for one it’s just the interest in their life and you see them having children, getting married which makes you consider what you want for your future. 

My favourite vloggers 

1. Anna and Jonathan Saccone Joly – Yes a lot of people hate on them and think it’s perfectly fine to make their life hell by throwing obscene comments at them to get them to leave but I love this couple they are inspiring they never give in to the haters and they continue to make vlogs every single day without fail. They are watched for escapism just to get away from stress over coursework. But they are really great and unlike most others they live in Ireland.
2. Shaytards – Here are another family who are always vlogging and are on the journey to making a documentary. They have 4 lovely children and live in LA, they are inspiring due to achieving things most other people can’t. Shay has ran marathons alongside Katilette who is Shay’s wife. The children go by nicknames of Princesstard, Sontard, Babytard and Rocktard.. Babytard was even on the frontcover of James Blunt’s album.Watching their videos it’s a lot of fun you will have a laugh. It’s also pretty amazing how Shay lost weight aswell and inspires me to lead a better life to achieve what I dream of. 
3. CTFXC – Other known as Charles and Allie who live in Florida with their cute dogs Zoey and Marley. Charles is on tour with We The Kings which is amazing how he managed to get to that point to be able to play with them on stage and travel the world. I never get bored of their vlogs because they are always doing something different. 
4. The Schuerman show – They finally came back after taking a long break from the site after they were bullied by haters. I love them, Sam is funny and really creative with the whole DIY thing. They may repeat the same activities but they are just as great as the other vloggers. 
5. ItsJudysLife – Judy and Benji are wonderful parents to their first child, Julianna. They lead a healthy lifestyle that is inspiring to try out different things. Judy is a great Beauty guru on her own channel called ‘Itsjudystime’ full of first impressions, hauls and looks. I love watching their vlogs each morning. 

YouTubers get a lot of hate for how they parent their babies and child, the way they do things are different to others obviously other people don’t like that or want to bully someone that is happy so they hate on these people even calling the child and babies horrible names that is so uncalled for. This site was for positivity not negativity, it gives the people confidence to achieve and do what they like where people only push them down for that. 

Due to all of these videos and people making videos it inspires me to make my own videos because my main interest is books that is what I talk about and seeing people talk about all these different things makes me want to vlog or just video any subject. 

Lush treat

Some days I just want to relax in the bath without the stress of the family arguing over taking too long or they wanted to use the bathroom first so I thought you know what I'm going to take this chance to have a bath first before everyone because by the end of their time there is no hot water left! I like the water to be almost boiling because it's comforting and I'm generally cold all the time which is no fun. So I decided to use my Lush products I got in the little gift boxes they have around Christmas they are super cute and affordable unless you get the massive box but other than that Lush are the best company to buy things from; the bath or shower becomes more enjoyable because you can relax more and let me tell you with the bubble bars the bath water becomes silky leaving the softest feeling on your skin afterwards with a hint of glitter from the ballistic.

1. My Yankee Winter Wonderland candle ~ I've had this since last year and I forgot to use it until now so I'm making the most of it while it's winter and there is snow outside HAHA! I know silly right but It's only best to use it not waste it. 

2. The bubble bar called 'Creamy Candy' It's really girly and cute with the yellow flower of course there is many other flower colours also many different bubble bars. The comforter is a favourite of mine. Check out Lush's website - https://www.lush.co.uk/

The other two photos just show the candlelit bath running water because I love how it makes it seem so relaxing it makes you want to fall asleep! 

The purple water was from the Space Girl bath bomb which I didn't take a picture of but it makes the water look really nice which the bubbles come from the bubble bar which is super good. 

These are my super awesome warm Christmassy PJs that I'm still wearing because it's cold and wintery so they are keeping me warm while I'm off college ill :) 

So I hope you are all having a great first month of the new year and I will be back with more posts soon! 

Lena 

xo 

Stress is just too much

So all week I've been on edge because I had an exam today which is the 9th January and as usual it's just the stress of having to be in a hall for 1 hour or more, you have revision and write out the answers, I felt like I would get to the day of the exam then forget about all I know about the subject but lucky enough It stayed with me this time. I was able to answer all questions with the knowledge of what it was but the worst was trying to make sure that It all make sense and that I wrote down the notes to maybe earn extra marks. Exams are my weak point I freak out and to the point were It makes me slightly ill but It didn't this time because I was so sure of what I had to do.

The results come back some time in March which isn't too long away so hopefully it will come by soon so I don't worry myself that I've failed. I would think I have failed even when I wrote answers for all the questions and honestly I never have any faith in myself to do well which is ridiculous because I should, If I'm positive I will do well because I'm concentrating and not messing about but while revising and doing my coursework I was so desperate to just pick up a book and read I didn't but I really wanted to. I knew that this exam meant a lot to me because I want to be able to move on with my education I don't want to go back 2 years or more. It's very frustrating to be the older one out of the class sometimes because I feel like I'm way behind everyone who was in the same year as me they have all moved onto University I don't want to be stuck in college forever.

But the good thing about today was being able to read my book on the bus journey home, to relax and enjoy my time with no stress. I could do what I wanted which with that I feel so much better now! I hope that if any of you have exams this month or later on in the year that you do well because you deserve it :) Work really hard and you will do well with the positivity with it. Also we only just took the Christmas tree down today which was super bad because it's bad luck to take it down any later than the original date to bring it down.

January 3rd 2012

I'm very proud of myself today because I went out of my comfort zone and did something that will benefit me.. making me more confident you know now that It's been done I feel great and I'm happy. So I had never really thought about doing this but my boyfriend had spoken to me about it and constantly reminded me, him thinking that because I'm really shy that I would avoid it I'm not one to go out of my comfort zone ever due to worrying about everything, I'm not into the whole going out and being around big crowds of people because I feel vulnerable when I do so usually I take someone with me which I did today but what I had to do I didn't want someone to be there just because it's personal and so I went it took me a second or two to actually go but I did it so I'm really happy now.
Anyway so I'm supposed to be doing the 365 day journal but I missed out the second day because I just didn't feel up to writing anything but I will today once I've finished this post. I really love to write but when I go to do it I just don't know what to write about, I could talk about my day but it's nothing interesting or special I'm pretty sure my life is nothing compared to all these awesome bloggers you see that have great posts about make-up  fashion and a daily diary then mine is just thoughts that have popped into my mind now and again. I wish I was more confident to talk about things openly but I only find that I can't because my mind isn't open to sharing the personal moments with strangers.
Hopefully I'm going to get back on track to using this blog and my other wordpress blog - http://herwhimsicalwonderland.wordpress.com/ I haven't had a good mind set this past year because a lot has happened so due to the new year I'm trying to slowly get back into the routine of writing which I wish I hadn't stopped but it happened so I can't take it back.

New Years Eve

'Last night was great with him, honestly I wish he could of been here I don’t want to sound like I’m obnoxious or anything but we fit well together we like different things, we are complete opposites but its why we are good for each other.. opposites attract and we can talk for hours we won’t agree on what each others like but we listen because its only right that we do, learning more each day from the things that interest them. I can’t believe it’s 3 years in April it feels so.. New to me to have been with someone for this long'

This was my new years eve post on Tumblr I thought I wouldn't put it here to add more to this blog it deserves more attention. 

Long Distance Love

So who ever thought that being in a long distance relationship would actually happen, the possibility of waking up one day to going about to the usual activities searching online websites like Tumblr, tweeting on Twitter and Role playing on chat rooms; meeting someone who comes along and literally pulls you off your feet. For some people their other half is 1,000 miles away so they can't see them most the time they will visit when they can, others they live just a couple of hours away so it's a train journey away but it's still a long distance relationship no matter how many miles we have to save up the money for that journey and organise it all properly without any faults.

 I am an LDR with a wonderful guy which in April it's going to be 3 full years of being together. This is the first relationship I've ever had and he makes me feel great, he's the kind of guy I love to be around because he's always joking, never fails to make me laugh and he's amazing. I never knew of Long Distance Relationships until I met him and fell head over heels in love with him I don't regret anything at all. 

There is an age gap but it's nothing extreme, it's 2 years in-between but I'm happy I feel more mature with him yet we can still act young and be silly because we are in love it's best to have fun and a good time instead of being too serious at the wrong time.  As with any other relationship we can't say that it will be forever all we can do is just wait it all out and see what the future holds, all couples in a relationship want that great future, being married for years to come bringing up the the moment where you announce you are having a baby. It's what most of us want, I want that but I wouldn't rush into it I would love to come home to him one day and spend the weekends in bed doing nothing but it won't happen just yet it's going to take a lot of effort and time. I love him he means everything to me and he truly makes me the best I can be. 

I hope that anyone else in a LDR has a good year and enjoys their time with the SO, have a great new year. xo